6.30.2010

model's block.

i repeat the same routine, just a series of posed emotions, cheapened beauty and deft hands.

(by jade noir)

i just want to be back in school.

i'm not feeling too awesome right now, in fact i've been eating lots of amazing gluten free baked goods the past week to try to distract myself from that fact. i want time to read and be curious and creative, but i don't even have time to get my work done properly. i can't even work right now because i'm too busy worrying about who will take care of the kitty love of my life while i live in my car to save up to go back to school. i hope to financially be halfway there after summer is said and done.


i fear i will never be content, and relish it at the same time.
progress is the child of discord.


(by my photographic muse: izzy, head piece by j. martin.)



disaster is an enticing thing, or maybe i'm just masochistic.

6.28.2010

a soul transforms the pedestrian into prey or preadator.


(jewelry by jake martin)

It is easier to see
Evil as entity
Not as condition inside you and me
I did not invent it, I'm just in charge of it
Simple businessman with simple practical plan

So do you wanna be a model, yeah?
All you got to do is show up, wow!
We'll be leaving soon for the breaking ground
For there will forever be slavery
There forever be cruelty

There forever be wretched of Earth
Crawlin' up round driven by last semen drop
Factory that makes you, they say, it never stops
Factory that makes them, I know, it never stops...

So do you wanna be a model, yeah?
All you got to do is show up, wow!
We'll be leaving soon for the breaking ground
For there will forever be slavery
There forever be cruelty

(lyrics by gogol bordello.)






i'm bored with being driven.
and i'm pretty lonely due to it.
the road is full of short term people,
but i find myself letting less and less of them in.

is this bitterness on my tongue? i hope not. if there is one pointless experience on this earth that should be done away with, it is regret.

6.16.2010

the fuel in my head from the flesh.



right now i wish i didn't need sleep, love, or all of the comforts of living.

i wish i could run on apples and ambition alone. that would mean i could save up enough money to go back to school in less than a year, i'm sure.


i have been surrounded by incredible, talented, and kind people for the greater part of the last year, with this trip throwing that into sharp focus. i've been working with an amazing team the past 2 days and having other inventive artists to collaborate with does SO much for my creative energy... i'm still buzzing.


texas is a sauna. but there's some really rad people here.

6.07.2010

symmetriac.


when everything crumbles i'm no longer surprised.